Witness

I just got back from school. Gosh. One word. Tired. But I can run from the fact that walking from school is tiring. As I arrived, I checked my phone. Straightly checked my inbox.

(no messages)

Like always. I sighed and reached my laptop. Online of course. I look back my phone. I remembered. Last time I got almost 100++ messages in a day was wayyyy long time. Frankly, I miss those moment. But what to do? I just have to accept that no one text me. Kesian.

Actually. I just witness a debate in fb. It's about how a group of friends suddenly collapse. There was 4 of them who tried to keep their friendship and 1 who just gave up. It's not my right to comment or say whatever bout this fight. But as a human that have religion. Breaking a relationship *friend* is a sin. I'm not gonna be ustazah but it's true. I hate watching people fight or hate each other.

You can't say people come and go especially you're one of the lovable. You CAN say that if someone died. You have to realize that friendship is the most great present that you've got. As you see, teenagers nowadays are more close with their friends than family. As an example : when you have problems and you need to tell someone. Answer me. Will you directly call your parents and tell everything or your friends? Or you have a great news bout things that you love. Is it your parents that you willing to tell first? Or your friends?

Give and take is what we teenagers have to do. I'm a bit disappointed of what happened. Imagine how's your other friends feels? You, moving on, happily. While other still waiting for you to come back. Can't you remember all the things that you guys have done together? Sharing all the laughs, sadness even scared together. They have other friends too but consider yourself as a lucky one because they love you more. But all you ended up with GOODBYE.

Hmmm, I know I'm just a kid. Underage. Not mature yet. But at least I know how to keep my friendship strong till now. The conclusion is, losing a friend is not the answer. I did this because I care.

Najwa's BACK

Hello. Yes I'm backk. HAHA lama tak update blog ni. Actually, I almost forgot that I have a blog. Thanks to my friend, she reminds me to update this blog. *HAHA*

Nyway, the only reason I didnt update the blog is I was in love. WAS. And I've broken heart as what happened. Trying to forget bout everything's that magically makes me remind of him. A lot of thing helped me. Counseling, school activities. And a lot of patiences. Thank God I'm okayy. HAHA

Last three weeks ago, I went to Kadet Polis's camping. And last week I went to PRS's camping. HAHA my parents and sister called me crazy because PMR is totally less than 80 days and I'm still camping and stuff. But I'm glad filling up my mind with some activities. Atleast it calmed me down and relaxed my mind from thinking something stupid.Oh yeah, last Friday. One of my friend pindah to Pahang. *Sigh* Why must everyone move now? Why not next year? I'm soooooo sick of my friend's moving.

I looked around, everyone's happy. Except me. Nahhh, I wont bother bout it lah. Forget bout it. This might shock you but, I, Najwa Najhan, Twilight's biggest fan, haven't watched Eclipse! What the hell is that?! Gahhh! This drive me co-co! I really need to watch that! I've been reading the novels again and again. But still havent watch the movie! AAAAAAAHHHHHH!

I just chat with my bestfriend, Milla. And she said she met Saiful yesterday. Aiyoooo. Why must she's the only one who keeps meeting him? This sucks. My parents wont allow me to hangout on weekends with friends anymore. Unless, my sister or part of my family ada. Baru boleh keluar. A bit suck eh? But what to do? This is the life of every person that want a success life on the future. In much clearer word, RICH LIFE. HAHA berangan.

So that's bout it. I have no idea dah ni. I promise I'll update again. Dont be mad at me dah! -.- Au revoir. Muaxh!

I Can't Believe It!

Keep on feeling shitty Najwa :)

I dont know what is that guy trying to do. Hurts my feeling? Itu sudah lama dahh. Bagi jealous? Lagi lamaa. HAHA whatever.

Saya meng-ignore dia dari hidup ni but I cant stop my feelings to avoid from him. I hate when I like someone like this even though he/she hurts me so much. A lot of things happened. But I wont forget a shit. I want to be friends. But I'm too UNDERAGE. So I was rejected.

Things that makes me more angry is that all the sudden that 'stuff' jadi bestfriend dengan that 'thing'. I'm sure you guys doesnt understand what I'm saying. But a lot of people noticed it. I'm soooooo frustrated. Heyy back off lah bitch! Ramai lagi kat luar sanaa. Sini gak kau pilih!

Huh whateverr. I'm starting to melalut because

A. I'm craving for Macaroni and Cheese

B. Wan Ahmad Akmal Arif makes me angry

C. I hate myself!

So thats it for today. HAHA eeee I hate this post lahh. KZKB sudah marahh online online ni. PMR nak dekat. Adoiiii, yela PAPA oii! -.-

School Is Back!

Aiya, school. Not a great word to be remind of. So lazy lah! I can't find my other tali kasut. Semua hilang! Can't I have home school? So I don't need the uniform, the tali kasut, the school bag, and most of all, the jalan kaki. -.-

Although I miss my classmate. But I'm sure by tomorrow, I'll be screaming and yelling in the classroom because I can sense the annoying-ness in the class. But firstly, remind me to wish my friends, Kam Cai Ting and Kamil a Happy Birthday. Feel so guilty for not wishing them. And I'm still envy of them for getting a great results, and I don't.

School, gonna meet the boring, annoying, perasan, syok sendiri teachers. Gahhh! Why? Why?! I don't want to wake up early. I don't want to iron my uniforms. I don't want to pack my bag. *Sigh* But I can't ignore those things.

Nyway, I found something but it's kinda blurry. *Kau ni Adzam, takpandai pakai camera lah!* But it's funny because we end up covered with flour all over our body and faces. HAHA good time. Good time.

We were Form 2. 2 Diamond. HAHA

I miss this moment. With Fiqri around me. Always there for me when I got problems. It's hard for me to find that kind of friend. But now, he's not with me. He's working his ass of at Banting to get 8A's. I miss you Fiqri. Goodluck buddy. :')

Well now, all I got to say is GOOD LUCK to all PMR Candidates. Let's force our ass and brain out and get that 8A's together! Forget bout hangouts, money, concerts, shopping, whatever lah! Like my mom would say :

"Work you ass out now, and when you got the good results, you can enjoy as hard as you can! It is even fun to enjoy yourselves if your bank account is full of money."

My Observation :)

Holidays. Well, I got one word for to describe it. SATISFIED.

But still, it didn't reach to AWESOME.

This holidays, there's a lot of thing that I've been through. Its not that it's not fun or what. It's just, not the kind I wanted. Most of the days, I've been moody, tearing low, boring, unsatisfied, and all the emotional thingie. And ofcourse, I can't get rid of that feelings.

Firstly, I didn't have the chance to meet two beloved friends. Nur Afiqah and Fiqri Syairazi. I felt like a jerk by not lepak-ing with them. Actually, three friends. Saiful Shukri. Aiyo, terrible mistakes. I also kinda miss Millatina. Its been kinda long time I haven't meet her.

Secondly, I got stress bout things happened around me. Some aren't satisfied bout me. Some hate me. And some, played my feelings. Which is the reasons I got bad results. I'm more stressful when I have to think bout my parent's reaction when they find out I flunked every subjects except for English.

Well now, I'm trying to get rid of those things that make these things existed. After PMR, I'll be running away from all of this. Don't bother to find me. Cuz I won't be there. I tried to be a great daughter, friends, sister and students. I guess, I'm not that great aren't I? :)