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April Folks

Its Farewell To April

Hi guys. Its been a long time since I've updated my blog. This 4months of 2012, my goodness. A lot of things happened. Good and bad. But something happened that I wanted to share with you guys.

Friday, 13th April 2012.
I was doing my normal stuff which is going to school and then tuition. But I was a bit worry because for the past 2 days, I've founded out that my grandma (Nek Ang) was hospitalized. I'm not happy because I never knew that my grandma would be sick. She's always healthy. Then my mum called. She said that we'll be flying to Kuching tomorrow. So I guessed, something is not right.

Saturday, 14th April 2012.
So last night I slept very late. I can't sleep at all. I was worried sick. Then my mum woke me up at 5am. She booked our tix as early as she can. She woke me up by saying "Najwa, bangun. Nenek dah takde." I straightly rise up and started to cry. By looking on my mum's face. I lose a grandmother. My mum. She lose a mother. We rushed to airport and safely arrived at Kuching. Arwah nenek, she look so fine. She even smiled. I look at her as if she's sleeping. I cried and closed my eyes, hoping for my grandma to breathe. But nothing happened. I just have to let her go.

But you see, my grandma's death cause for my family to be more close to each other. I still miss my grandma. To me, she never died. She is still alive with me. In my heart. So I must say this, to you all. Love your family no matter what.

"Nek, kamek rindu kitak. Kamek mintak maaf, sik sempat kamek mok jumpa kitak. Kamek harap kitak maafkan segala kesalahan kamek. Mun kamek ada polah kitak sakit hati ka apa. Kamek sik sengaja. Kamek sentiasa sayang kitak nek. Kamek tauk kitak akan okay sebab kitak baik. Sentiasa baik dengan siapasiapa. Kitak suka jak senyum dengan orang. Kitak tahan dengan karenah cucu cucu kitak. Semoga ninek ditempatkan dengan orang orang yg beriman. Al-Fatihah"

Step by step

Things they've done.

10th - 12th Feb 2012.

Hello bloggers! Its been awhile. I thought I can change within the period but I dont. So, lets talk about these picture. I went to Kuching just to celeb my mum's 50th birthday. It was awesome but something happened which is kinda bad impression for the guest towards me. Sigh, everything went so well then suddenly the MC asked me to sing. My mum asked actually. Here's what happened.

So, my mum asked me to sing Menghitung Hari by Kris Dayanti. I know why but I dont mind at all because I thought I was through with relationship and stuff so I stand there, hold the mic and sang. Suddenly, when I sang the lyrics, it meant so much my heart just dropped. I was started to cry. To all you guys that might dont understand why, it is actually I'm still not over w this one guy. Kinda sucks but idk why. 

So I sang horribly and ended up hugging my dad, crying. After few mins later, I ran upstairs and these people *in the picture and also Putri, she's not in the picture* came to me. And I thought I can stop crying by looking at them but I was wrong. But they did cheer me up and I was glad to have them part of my life. And thanks to them, I can proceed enjoying my mum's birthday. You guys dont know how much it meant to me. Love you guys :')

If he knew

Something that I wish I could say to him.
Anyway, just to drop by and say
Happy Birthday To You.