Siva Is Back!

Hey you guys, today is 29th September which make yesterday was my birthday and thanks for the wishes. Yes, I'm sixteen and still young. Seriously I was touched. Sooo, had dinner with papa last night. Awesome dinner I must tell. EH, dah lagi pasal birthday. I wanna talk about today.

Curious with the title? HAHA time to figure it out. Remember my post entitled NOOOOOO ! ? I posted it last year and you haven't read it, you can click the link. Its about me having this not-so-secret crush towards my tuition teacher. I know, its weird but he was awesome! *and still awesome*

So today, surprisingly form 4 had this seminar to attend and I was pissed off because I brought a lot of books. Seriously, its freaking heaving and it ain't funny stuff! So, with not in a good mood, I entered the hall and jeng jeng jeng. I saw Mr. Siva, standing besides the front door, talking with Mr. Chandran. And I was like "OMAIGOD YOU'VE GOT TO BE KIDDING WITH ME!" My friends were like "NAJWA! Tengok tu!" And I was like "I KNOWWWW!"

He started to teaches us and I was smiling till my face got cramp and focusing on what he's teaching and I must say, Mr. Siva. You haven't changed a bit. I sooooooo miss you man! Wish I could say it out loud! HAHA

Sengal gila post ni but I don't freaking care! Conclusion : I'm glad I could meet you again Mr. Siva. But I'm so sorry, I'm taken. Last year I was single mingle triangle and you weren't there. So, friends? *flips hair* Hihihihi berangan. Cerita lama. Takpa. Buat lawak je ingat balik. So kbye. HAHA

Sometimes

Mostly, things happened around was not what we planned. The day we planned to laugh out loud, might be ended up crying. And the day where we were suppose to tell out everything and ended up giggling might turned out to fighting. But, the next phase, for me, is the hard part. Accepting things that happened. 

When I'm sad : I might acted cool, like nothing's happened. You're so wrong. Thats why a phrase "Don't Judge The Book By Its Cover" invented. Because every smiles I put on my face, have a lot of story that you should've know. But usually I decided to not show it and keep it to myself because I am always like that. People may think I'm just 24/7 laughing and having fun but at the end of the day I must be crying all night long.

I wish : I really wish someone understands me. Sometimes, I need help. Not everything I can do all by myself. I  need guide. I'm not a SLR camera that have "Guide" mode. Who now knows that I'm sick? Nope. Yup. No one because nobody cares. That's why I keep it to myself. 

But whothehell cares? I'm just another girl in your life that might come and go in your life, right? Not important at all. But not to worry. My sister said that I'm a good actor so that's what the advantage for you.

#justsaying

Another one

Have I change?

Question have been floating around my head. I realized people treated me different. Its not like before. At first I say to myself "Hey, its just a stupid question. Forget bout it." But then, I saw my dad's Facebook status. It was an old status ofcourse. But its a day after he sent me to SHAH. 

He posted : Baru aje beberapa jam ditinggalkan... dah rasa macam setahun lamanya...memang aku tak biasa kalau tak de dia...

Now I'm here, and I feel different. Sometimes, I feel like diketepikan. But I dont wanna show it, because I always thought that it is bullshit thinking. Seriously, have I changed? I never felt like this before. Sigh. I miss the old me. If its true I change, why?