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Nurul Najwa Binti Najhan

Going to be 17 in 2012

28 September 1995

Libra

Single

SMK Dato' Ibrahim Yaacob

SPM CANDIDATES 2012

Holes.

So, what's going on with my life? I haven't go out for this week.
I'm not in the mood for anything. 

Most of my friends now is in a relationship. In love. Its holiday so I'm not surprised. What can be much more fun in holidays than love? I should be happy for them. Usually I'm eager to meet their boy/girlfriend but I don't know what's up with me but I just don't wanna meet anybody.

I feel much more better when I'm alone. Even though when my parents are around. I rather be alone. Laying on  the sofa. Just stares at the ceiling and just wonder what and why. Atleast I'm getting better on doing my chores. But, sigh. I just don't know. For some unknown reason, I just want to be left behind.

But who cares? Readers remain readers. Friends remain friends. You can't do anything to change my feelings. Maybe a laughter in 5mins but they can't fill up back the holes. Oh what should I do now?

Just posting

Hahahahaha!

I'm Lazy

My boyfriend are back

I love you guys :B 

I wish.

Help

What is love? Every girl wishes to have a true love but what is that? 

I'm clueless. Idk anything about love.

Why?

I always ended up crying when I believe.

Do you still believe?

Idk. My mind says no. Deep down inside, I do. 

Part of mine

Just an ordinary day. Nothing special. Organizing my wardrobe. Apparently, I can't put all of my clothes in the wardrobe. Too many clothes. Trying to decide which stays and which don't.

Joking. Everything stays. I love my clothes too much. *well, i did throw something* So, organized them into groups. Sleeveless, tshirts, dresses, school shirts and others. But then, I missed one. Jerseys.

Lipat jersey. First one was green. Lime green to be exact. Haha of course, its my team jersey called Hamdan at SHAH. Champion this year. Then, black and yellow. Malaysia jersey. I always love this jersey because I can't believe I actually watch the match and scream like hell. Too spiritual I guess. HAHA. And last, orange?

Orange jersey. I couldn't remember that I have an orange jersey. I mean, its ORANGE. Its like bergulung when I saw it so I took and opened it. And there it was. Written in black. Bold. High Voltage. Rezza 9. Ya Allah. My heart just crashed into a million pieces. Suddenly, tears starting to fall. It's his. I hugged it and ugh I wish it was him in front of me, wiping my tears.

But no more. He left. And all I got is a small part of him.

Untukmu

Setiap apa yang ku buat

Setiap apa yang ku lakukan

Tidak risau pasal mereka

Walau apa yang terjadi padaku

Kerna ini semua untukmu

Untukmu, untukmu

Kerna ini semua untukmu

Untukmu, untukmu

Secrets

This girl contains a lot of painful secrets behind the smile that she, herself wouldn't dare to speak. 

Dotdotdot

You guys heard about my bestfriend Millatina a.k.a Tambee, my twin Fiqri Syairazi and even my hostel pal, Eleena. But I bet you haven't know bout this young chick called Ikhda Suhada. I might mentioned her name in this blog, *I think* But I haven't post her photos.

Funny starter I tell ya. My first year of school at DIY, I learnt so many types of human around, *and even learnt how to swears a lot* well, I have this fear whenever I'm around Ikhda. And guess what, she hate me. Hell yeah! Hate turns to bestfriends? Figured. HAHA.

Okay, apparently, her group kinda tried to blend it with me, and I might put my ego a little bit high, but yeah, Ikhda always hated me. She said I'm weird, my lifestyle is not like hers, I'm not good enough to be in their team, the way I social is too social, unacceptable, I talk a lot and sometimes I look like a bitch. Yeah, its tough. I can't remember though how we suddenly became bestfriend. Seriously. But I've experienced a lot of funny and unexpected things from her. Now, she's the one that understands me. Okay, I bluff. A lot of my friend understands me, but Ikhda haiyaaaa. If I blinked, the message straightly came into her mind and she's like "Received dude."

Nothing starts beautifully. Starter usually is a bit painful. But if we stay and learn to accept the fact, it'll turn out extra ordinary. Now, Ikhda and I are the Koperasi Prefects and PRS together. Its hard to hold 2 responsibility that usually bumps into the same dates and stuff, but its fun because I have her to cherish with and only her knows the tears, sweats and laughter we've shared.

Oh shucks, retarded much?

I called her Dot btw.

The S Word

Seriously guys. My life sucks. Seriously. Coldplay rocks. Thats all. I love Coldplay. You live in a container box if you dont know whats Coldplay. You sucks. HAHA okay okay bye. Imma sleep now. Oh wait, you dont care! HAHAHA okay blame the laughing gas -,-

Am I that easy to be forgotten? 

Doodle

Shockingly Excited

El, kau memang suka tangkap gambar dalam toilet ni kan?

Yesterday, I went out with Eleena Hussin wowweeee lama tak jumpa awak okayy! 3 months is it? I wonder how did you survive in the cold scary place called Hostel. Naaah, I'm joking. I bet you went it happily ;) *yeke?*

Anyways, as we met we were like jumping and screaming and jumping so yeah. Good to see her. Oyeah, so we bought movie tix, have our lunch and chat non-stop. Kinda lots of word that she used and I dont even remember whats the meaning. *exmple: Kucar, habat, etc etc.* Heeeee so, after eating, we decided to just walk around the building just to kill time. Our movie started like for another 50mins.

As we were on the escalator, I was actually thinking bout the senior. I mean, how are they and stuff. Suddenly I  saw this 4 girls walking *in the same heights* and for a minute I tot it was them, my senior. I mean, they can be anyone. At the monorail, I saw a girl look like El, and its not even her. So as we walk nearer, I realized it was really them! Like omaigod, I think my heart stops beating for a second I mean I can't believe I'm meeting them.

We were hugging and screaming and jumping again. MADE MY DAY!

Sayang awak El :B

kasutkuningaku.blogspot.com

Weird

Most of the time I'm random. I do random stuff every day. *Except for my daily routine which is kinda sad because it kinda shows that I'm lonely* But I realized I did one thing just the same since I was a kid till I'm 16 years old girl and 17 to be.

CRY

Okay everyone cry, I know that. Weird huh for me to bring this up? Its actually the way I cry. I can laugh randomly. I dance randomly. I cook, takpayah cakap lah. Macammacam terjadi. But when I cry, I can only do one thing : cry under the table. 

When I was a kid, its hard for the adults pujuk me because I cry under the table. Its hard for them to get me out from there because I'm small and I keep going in the middle of the table just so that they couldn't reach me.

When I was in standard, Kak Munah *my former maid* used to call my dad at work just because she begged my dad to pujuk me to get out from the table because I might be late for school. But my dad succeed -,- He promised that he'll pick me up and buy me ice cream.

In high school, I cried under my school table. First, its because I got a D for Science. Next, stomachache. Lastly, dealing break up. Lately, my dining table is also a good helper because I lay under there and just cry my heart out until I fall asleep. And until now, I still dont understand why crying under the table is my main attitude.

Bright

(:

I Miss

here's a little random thing bout what I miss because frankly I'm just bored.

1. i miss Milla harr harr :B
2. i miss my childhood when I was a Kuching citizen.
3. i miss when that moment I don't have to think about any problems.
4. i miss when the moment whenever I woke up, I sees my sister playing the ps1
5. i miss crash bandicoot. *is that how we spell it?*
6. i miss Kuching.
7. i miss when I used to have just perfect hair.
8. i miss you. hm
9. i miss the moment I played kejarkejar.
10. i miss all the good food in Kuching.
11. i miss my nenek.
12. i miss when the time im scared to hold RM50.
13. i miss when everyone were playing the Snake game in their phone.
14. i miss PMR :B
15. i actually miss my Kuching friend. sadly, they doesn't remembers me -,-
16. i miss when every morning or night I get the text "I Love You Sayang."

Forever

Coldplay so awesome. Say no more. Fullstop. You weird if you no like coldplay. Done.

"InsyaAllah, everything will be the same"

- words keep me feels better

The broken promises floating in my mind. 

I just cant take it. 

*screaming in my heart* 

The day you slipped away.

I cant do anything.

Just have one thing in my mind.

.

.

.

Which is the memory I wanna forget 

Heart speaks, tears fall.

Don't make this too complicated, it's all said and done. 
Though all of the lights have faded, we both had our fun. 
And I'm not sorry you came, I'm not sorry you're gone, 
but if you could've changed anything, what would you have done?

Don't beat yourself up over this, I still think you're strong. 
When everything else crumbled in, you carried me on. 
And I'm not sorry you came, I'm not sorry you're gone, 
but if you could've changed anything, what would you have done?

Don't leave this behind us, you should take it and run. 
Maybe you'll find the answer for when your time has finally come; 
when the angels have welcomed you in, and they say, 
"Yes, you have lived with love, but if you could've changed anything, what would you have done?"

I'm not sorry you came, I'm not sorry you're gone. 
But I'm still kind of wondering over everything that once was. 
And if you could've changed anything, what would you have done?

When it comes down to the wire, everything you desire, do you throw it away? 
Winter, Spring, Summer or Fall, you just needed to call,
I would be there always.

Siva Is Back!

Hey you guys, today is 29th September which make yesterday was my birthday and thanks for the wishes. Yes, I'm sixteen and still young. Seriously I was touched. Sooo, had dinner with papa last night. Awesome dinner I must tell. EH, dah lagi pasal birthday. I wanna talk about today.

Curious with the title? HAHA time to figure it out. Remember my post entitled NOOOOOO ! ? I posted it last year and you haven't read it, you can click the link. Its about me having this not-so-secret crush towards my tuition teacher. I know, its weird but he was awesome! *and still awesome*

So today, surprisingly form 4 had this seminar to attend and I was pissed off because I brought a lot of books. Seriously, its freaking heaving and it ain't funny stuff! So, with not in a good mood, I entered the hall and jeng jeng jeng. I saw Mr. Siva, standing besides the front door, talking with Mr. Chandran. And I was like "OMAIGOD YOU'VE GOT TO BE KIDDING WITH ME!" My friends were like "NAJWA! Tengok tu!" And I was like "I KNOWWWW!"

He started to teaches us and I was smiling till my face got cramp and focusing on what he's teaching and I must say, Mr. Siva. You haven't changed a bit. I sooooooo miss you man! Wish I could say it out loud! HAHA

Sengal gila post ni but I don't freaking care! Conclusion : I'm glad I could meet you again Mr. Siva. But I'm so sorry, I'm taken. Last year I was single mingle triangle and you weren't there. So, friends? *flips hair* Hihihihi berangan. Cerita lama. Takpa. Buat lawak je ingat balik. So kbye. HAHA

Sometimes

Mostly, things happened around was not what we planned. The day we planned to laugh out loud, might be ended up crying. And the day where we were suppose to tell out everything and ended up giggling might turned out to fighting. But, the next phase, for me, is the hard part. Accepting things that happened. 

When I'm sad : I might acted cool, like nothing's happened. You're so wrong. Thats why a phrase "Don't Judge The Book By Its Cover" invented. Because every smiles I put on my face, have a lot of story that you should've know. But usually I decided to not show it and keep it to myself because I am always like that. People may think I'm just 24/7 laughing and having fun but at the end of the day I must be crying all night long.

I wish : I really wish someone understands me. Sometimes, I need help. Not everything I can do all by myself. I  need guide. I'm not a SLR camera that have "Guide" mode. Who now knows that I'm sick? Nope. Yup. No one because nobody cares. That's why I keep it to myself. 

But whothehell cares? I'm just another girl in your life that might come and go in your life, right? Not important at all. But not to worry. My sister said that I'm a good actor so that's what the advantage for you.

#justsaying

Another one

Have I change?

Question have been floating around my head. I realized people treated me different. Its not like before. At first I say to myself "Hey, its just a stupid question. Forget bout it." But then, I saw my dad's Facebook status. It was an old status ofcourse. But its a day after he sent me to SHAH. 

He posted : Baru aje beberapa jam ditinggalkan... dah rasa macam setahun lamanya...memang aku tak biasa kalau tak de dia...

Now I'm here, and I feel different. Sometimes, I feel like diketepikan. But I dont wanna show it, because I always thought that it is bullshit thinking. Seriously, have I changed? I never felt like this before. Sigh. I miss the old me. If its true I change, why? 

Hormones, is it?

I just wanna say that I appreciates every food in the world. They make me happy. And fat. 

Tibatiba? September. Idk what's wrong with this month. Like every year, this month would be my craving month. Is it because of hormones? I mean, I wanna eat, a lot. I asks weird questions about guys, a lot. This month is the month that I am surrounded by many information. TOO many I guess! Sometimes, I can easily be emotional. Sometimes, I'm hyper, I cleaned the house! Or sometimes, I get bored, I acted weird and asks a lot of questions till people get annoyed.

Actually, I just wanna post food that I'm craving for so here it is!
Meatballs, steak, pasta, Su Azah's mee belacan and spaghetti, cupcakes, my own made cookies, ice cream goreng, korean food, creampuff, brownies, lamb, dominos, lasagna, chicken wings, ketupat okay can I say I want everything that goes through my mind?

Thank you :3

This is why people call me Jay

I just miss you a lot :'(

Everything's just wrong.

Hello. I'm finally back from Kuching and frankly speaks I feel really down. Crappy and shittay. A lot more crappier actually, when I found out there's a stranger, put my picture, *or should I say, stole my picture* and set it as her freaking Profile Picture in Facebook. I'm not gonna type her name here but women, you are seriously mental. What were you thinking?

You can add me and say "Excuse me Najwa, I adore your picture." And I'll be gladly to say "Oh that's very nice of you, thank you." It is not that hard. Taking my picture, you have to like, save it in your laptop or pc, and you have to upload it again in your Facebook. Menyusahkan diri je kan? :) I checked her acc and guess what? She changed her picture back. The best part is, she's wearing tudung! Whatthe?

*Chill Najwa* Okay, I am not in a good condition. I'm Kuching-sick! Oyeah, I now having the greatest flu and my body is like boiling. I realized, I look like super skinny. Whatthehelliswrongwithme?

"We need to forgive someone who apologizes to us no matter how" - Papa

I'm lovin it ;D

Malaysian, can you write songs like him? Please oh please. I adore his songs so much!

One last time

Eleena Hussin

Intantantantan

Hazimah 

Eleena and Fatin 

Baaaani

Eleena, Fatin, Bani and Azeem

Abdul Basit

I just got nothing else to say. 5 months ain't a long term. 

This link is one of my friend's blog at SHAH and he is super kind. Its true, we doesn't know each other so much because busy with our own things but guess what? He was the first person that said "Hye Najwa." to me. My mum thought that he wanna flirted me. Haiyoo mama. And he lives at Kepong! At first I felt kinda awkward because I thought KL student doesn't exist at SHAH. Hihihi. So no worries because I know someday I'll meet him. Oh one correction for you Ezri, its not 'TAMPAN', its 'LAWA' that means belagak. And never said 'LAWA' to a woman.

Ezri Fikri

Thank you Ezri. 

p.s : blog dia. ooemjayy, malunya kalau nak dibandingkan dgn mine. 

even I can't edit something like that. 

http://ezri-go-lucky.blogspot.com/2011/08/memorabillia-bersama-najwa-najwa-najhan.html

SHAH Pekan

"All the sudden, I'm missing you guys :')"


Thank you for everything. You guys taught me and gave me a new experience. *Which kinda involving sunburns and growing pimples but whathehell?* But I couldn't thank enough because now you guy turned me into a great maid HAR HAR. I do chores easily now. Kinda enjoyed it. Sumpah taktipu. Siapa tak suka baju dia basuh wangi weh?

PRS, Hamdan & 4 Bakti

The B Word

Every morning I'll wake up and I'll rush to the toilet, brush my teeth and wash my face. Then I'll sit at the living room, take the remote and watch tv. Then, I'll be tweeting or facebook-ing. Lastly, I'll eat and go to sleep.

Whatthefuck? Why is it soooooo hard to get Wilayah's letter? I'm bored waiting. I wish I can drive and I have a car. Not for fun. But I'll drive down to Cyberjaya, enter the office and I'll say "Is it that hard to write ONE FREAKING LETTER says that I am back at Kuala Lumpur? Its only DIY! Don't wanna me bugging you? Fine, give me 50mil dollar every year and I will never come back here."

Sincerely, 

TheBoringNajwa

Move On

1st Jan 2008, 13 years old.

That is the day, the moment, I wanted to know the world. I want to try EVERYTHING. I've tried my best to be soooooo popular. I've tried to be the hottest. I've tried to be perfect. By doing some stupid decision, I thought when people look at me, they'll say "Wow, I would like to be like her." And that day, I started to hurt people. Be mean towards other. Fought. Hating other people. Grew something called Jealousy and Envy. Do things that I shouldn't do within my age. 

Now, 16 years old.

I realized. Can't believe it took me 3years to realized it. People DO mistakes. But hey, people that doesn't make mistakes, doesn't learn anything. So with this, I would like to apologize to everyone that I've hurt. Really sorry. Things happened not as we wished but that's life. So here's to the past : Burn It and Move On.

Puasa

"For this Ramadhan, I hope Allah strengthen my physical and mental to pass through all the obstacles that He give and always be patience because I know all of His doing is for my own good. Insya-Allah."

Alhamdulillah, we meet again Ramadhan. I'm soooo lucky to have the chance to fast for another year again. I shall eat a lot and shop till drop again! And I shall be kurus like I used to, AGAIN! :D Already got some new baju kurung HARR HARR. Nanti beli lagi HOYEAH. Suka menghabiskan harta mama papa B) I can imagine meself going to the Bazaar Ramadhan, thinking that I can eat all of the food but I dont. One thing that is M.I.A in this Ramadhan though. Friends. Sigh. Miss you guys so much. But sokay, for the future sake, it needs a little bit of sacrifice. 

Selamat Menyambut Bulan Ramadhan Al-Mubarak everyone :)

BANGGA B)

As I'm back to Kuala Lumpur . .

Gelang kaki? Check!

Laying on the sofa all day? Check!

Doing whacky things with my family? Check!

Blackberry? Check!

Food? Check!

And most important ..

NADAI PIMPLE BEBEH!

Finally

Well you know what they say : If you determine to do something, you might as well got it. Although it'll take some times. Okay, I'm bluffing. It took a LOT of time. But who the hell cares? I'm satisfied with the results.

Hey DIY-ians, *especially Diamonds*
Do you remember what I told you? If  I'm not back to DIY till June, its either I got mental problems or I'm dead. My promise was to come back to DIY in a blink. Well guess what? I fulfill the promise lah weh! I'm a bit glad too because I never seen my family are sooooo eager for me to come back. HOW I LOVE MY FAMILY!

Although, I do, well, I WILL miss something bout SHAH. The friends, the craziness, the pimple -.- Okay, maybe minus the pimple.

Eleena Hussin, thanks for always got my back whenever I'm down. Seriously, I owe you. Hope you'll got a better way of life without me. *Or just change back to Hillcrest!* Will miss you El. Not to forget Syahirah Ahamad, Najihah Ismail and Hazimah. HAHA :D Husna Dzeidee, wont forget you too dude! Hidup kena awesome habis! Syikin Bakri, Alyaa Athirah, Syahahida, Ned Reme HAHAHAHA. Ned, your jam loceng. I will never ever forget how you responded to it. Alia Syafinaz and Nasuhaa, whacky prefects.

Sheikh, avoid confusion man. Aziz, Sayyid and others, really sorry. You guys are the best :') Latiff, thank you. Khairil, Matno and Qhuzaimie, I'll keep my promise that I'll never forget you guys. B.O.B zouk weh zouk! Basit, promise me those stuff that I asked. BN

Others, I'll miss you guys. 

Dato' Ibrahim Yaacob

Frankly speaks, rindu DIY sangatsangat. Nak pindah sana balik, but sana nak ke terima Najwa?

Kalau dapat, hmm nak jawatan lama. Pengawas Koperasi, PRS, Bendahari 4Diamond, Kadet Polis, ahli Jaguar, ahli Badminton, * and Naib Pengerusi Kelab Rukun Negara HA HA.* Tapi boleh ke?

Okay rindu Fiqri and Ikhda. Rindu gang gang study laugh. Rindu segala galanya. I even miss the old me. How? I am now wayyyy totally the opposite of the person I used to be. Sigh, papa please help me out here? 

But, I need to improve my studies. I need that very much. By staying at KL, can I do that?

Gelak lah

Okayyy taktahu nak update apa actually. But emm, I think I got this one joke. *Please cakap korg tak pernah dengar joke ni* HAHA

Okayy, serious Najwa. *tampar pipi sendiri*
Ada satu bestfriend ni. Seekor lembu, seekor lagi babi. Pada suatu hari, dorg takde plan tau. Pastu tibatiba babi ni cadangkan satu idea. Babi cakap "Weh, jum kita lukis muka masing masing. Kau lukis muka aku, aku lukis muka kau. Okay tak?" Lembu tu pun cakap "Oh okay!"

Then dorg pun lukislah muka each other. Bila dah siap, babi show lah lukisan dia dekat Lembu. Lembu pun cakap "Gila cantik kau lukis Babi. Okay aku pulak show lukisan aku." Then bila Babi tengok and dia terus cakap "Wehhh! Buruk gila siot! Macam babi!"

Lawak takkk? Okay yg pernah dengar tu shadap kay?

Another sigh

Now, all I have to do is wait. *And waiting aint my biggest strength* 

I'm excited of the upcoming event. Certain people je tahu. But then when I call my peeps, they seems to have some problems and trust me, its like shit. No worries, I know it'll be better one day. Lately, I cant stop crying. I exploded twice in front of my teacher *and I might have slipped out couple of bad words* but I kept it too long in my heart! I need home doctor.

Weirdly, I'm craving for some steak and black pepper with mashed potatoes and french fries added up with mayo or just a simple Lai Chi Kang *or even a nice RM4.50 burger tepi jalan* but you'll never found it here at Pekan -.- Kempunan aku. Oh how I miss baking!

On the weekends, I imagine myself laying on the bed with my besties or maybe sitting at Starbucks and play some card games with my parents and sistah. Or bbm and skyping with Jojo at the same time. Or worst come to worst, sitting in front of the big screen, watching Harry Potter's marathon! How happy is that?! 

Sigh. As a conclusion, nothing at here will make me stay. Someday I'll make my move and I'm just waiting for that day. I miss my old life. I miss the old me. I miss what I eat, where I sleep, what I do and dont, and most of all, I miss my parents very very much. 

*I've been trying to contact Jojo.

Where is he? :(

Tak sanggup

Pa, I'm really sorry. Tapi Najwa tak sanggup nak balik hostel. Seriously. I'm tortured. Papa sendiri cakap you will help me to overcome the situation kan? There's no other ways except leaving that horrible school. Please papa. Najwa tak tahan. Tolong lah faham. Najwa tak belajar SATU HAPAK pun kat sana. All I got is shitty torture. Semua benda takboleh. Semua benda takde. Semua benda haram. WTH? Paaaa, please papa. Najwa tak suka sekolah tu. I hate it there! I wanna have the old me.

*Grumbles*

I dont get it. How can they love SHAH so much?

Twin

I miss you twin :'(

Once upon a time

I just realized this video and we were taking picture but my mistakes because I clicked the video button. And we managed to make the same pose. HAHA

I miss you Millatina :'(

http://hidupkenaghairah.blogspot.com/2010/11/bestfriend.html

Wrong question

Remember the story entitle "Little Red Riding Hood" where your dad or mom or Barney used to tell it to us and there's one part when the wolf acted like her grandmother so that he could trick her? Let me remind you the question that Little Red Riding Hood asked.

"Why is your eyes so big?"
"For better to look at you my dear."
"Why is your ears so big?"
"For better to listens to you my dear."
"Why is your teeth so big?"
"For better to eat up you my dear!"

Well, if I listen to my mom telling me bedtime story bout that, I would be hiding under my blanket, if I was back 4 years old. Heh heh. But thats not the main story that I wanna tell you. This might be embarrassing but stop asking me this question wont you?! Lately, everyone is Little Red Riding Hood to me. Asking me one simple particular easy question that make me annoyed. *Including my mom -.-

"Why is your butt so big?"

Gosh! That is freaking annoying! What should I answer? "For better to sit on you my dear?" Dude, its my ass. If its big, then its big! Dont blame me, blame the food that straight away moves to my ass. Or you guys just jealous? *eyebrow* So as a conclusion, dont ask that question AGAIN! Its my assets. HAHA

*

Home sweet home. 

Never gonna come back to that horrible school. 

Will update later. 

Twinns!

There's twin at my asrama. They are more to nerdy looks because they wear specs and there's always a book that they have to read. Everytime I ask "Arent you guys tired of reading books?" They just said "Entah."

Whatever, what I actually wanna say was this. One day, as I was taking my wuduk. I overheard the twins were like punching each other hands and then suddenly they acted like they're in a boxing competition. Kinda awkward for me lah. Then, they splashed the water to each other. Suddenly, one of them were upset. So she made her sad face. Then the other one said "Eleh, kuat merajuk. Kau ingat buat muka macamtu kau cantik lah? Buruk muka." Then I laughed like hell because they are twins, they look the same and one of them said that her twin was ugly.

HAHAHA lawak tak? Lawak kan? Please cakap lawak. Because I am now lack of funny stories. Thanks to asrama though.

Return of Najwa Najhan

Hello, yellow, mellow, fellow, gellow, *now I'm starting to blaberring*

Oh how I miss this blog! Well, not so proudly to say that I'm in the second week of exam. I got another week to go then I'll be going to Gunung Senyum *camping* then school 1 week then I'm off to Kuala Lumpur bebeh! Confirm muka hitam -.-

Nyways, I'm sick and tired to be call gemuk and buncit nowadays -.- Like shitt, I cant denied and I still cant accept the fact and reality that I am fat. Buncit nak mati. I've been doing 25 sit up in the morning and another 25 before going to sleep. But still no change. Add with puasa lagi. Gosh! Susahnya nak kurus!

Idk how to face my family and most important : JOJO. He is like getting more fit and skinnier day by day and I'm fattening day by day. This is sooooooo unfair! I wanna be skinny too! I dont want this vuncit vuncit thingie! Sooooo freaking fugly! Definitely not gonna face him looking like this X(

Well whatever because one day I will be skinny like I used to be. MARK MY WORD! >:(

5 months

Dear ARR, Happy 5months Anniversary! 

I cant believe its 5months already. Like seriously, I thought we're still like 2months. Heee, nyways, thank you for everything. Thanks for understanding my condition right now. Still feel guilty going to SBP though. I need you every moment sayang. I need to share everything that I've been through. But sadly, I cant. Thanks to my school's rule, I cant even look at my phone for 10mins! Gosh, I gtg. I'll be late! Love you sayang. Sorry no ayat gramatis because time get jealous whenever I'm posting something bout you. Again, love you so much.

"I love you with all my butt. I would like to say heart, but my butt is bigger". 

Remember this?

What A Week

Okay, usually I'll be laughing my ass off towards any of my friends that'll have sunburn or any terrible tanned or they just accidentally change horrible brownish or orangy. Well, you wanna know what?

SUNBURN ATTACKS ME NOW!

F YOU SUNBURN!

When I say I have sunburn on me, I didnt mean by the ordinary sunburn that'll fade away 3days after. I am literally dark like Nando's chicken after they cooked it! Ughh. #@!$%&* Okay, last week I went to this camping where I go as a urusetia. I thought I'll be happily away from school, relax at the room and just prepare the food for the students. But then I have to follow EVERY SINGLE ACTIVITIES that they attended which is shitttttaaayyyy because mostly its outdoor and its freaking hot! No trees at all! Muttaaaa. 

Then the next day, I have swimming class which I MUST attend because my dad paid for it so wasting is a bad. HAHA. Its was fun, I'm definitely not gonna lie bout that. But then, I realized that my sunburn is more worst than ever! But the good news is, I jumped from the plank thingie. Yerrrrr haha! 7feet okayyyy! Tinggi nak mampus! *And I saw some guys checking on me. Dude! Takennnnn!* I think thats it! So I'm dark, I look like an Indon and I going home next week! <3

Killing me softly

Hey ho I H my new school. Several excuses can be list here as you read right now but I'll keep it just between me, myself and my parents.

But like seriously, its not just me. Next week, one of my friend are leaving this school. Second in take just like moi. At first, she was high spirited, taking pictures and always asked me questions till I felt like strangling her neck that moment! But I have no rights to do that and I'll be going to jail if I do that so I keep it in my mind so that no one at that particular moment knows but me. Now, she's leaving me, and some of my KL friend decided to leave this school too.

It gave me the effect, hoping to leave this school ASAP. My parents are being helpful though. But everytime I hang up the phone, gosh my heart just felt like I'm missing them so much that make me cry for every night! Do you know that crying is tiring?! GAH!

Papa keep on telling "Just focus on your studies and we'll see the results on June."
While mama "Learn to improve yourself, not to compete everyone."

But most of the people that I really wish to hear something meaningful that helps me survive here disappointed me. All they say was "Its normal" or "Memang dah adat" or "Tak pelik lah Najwa" and most annoying is "Kteorg dulu lagi teruk, so dah tak rasa pape dah" WTF?  Dude! You guys have been 4 years living in this !@#$%& of course you're immune to it! I've been living at KL a long time and I'm comfortable to the environment and now I have to learn and obey new rules that is not even a big deal. Muttafukka.

So, that is me now. Desperate to go home. Hoping everyday. And I don't give a damn what people say. *Except for my parents*

I'm hate copying

Okay, I'll be lying if I say that I never copy my friend's homeworks. But I feel horrible after copying their works! Seriously, dont you guys feel it?

Facts that make me feel like copying others :
1. I blank whenever I see the questions
2. I'm not in the mood to do my works
3. I'm suffering some pain that MAY BE causes my death :p
and most important
4. I'm too lazy to think and write!

But now I realized that doing my works with my own effort its kinda satisfying  whether I got correct answers or wrong. But I'll feel over thrilled especially I get correct! WoooHooo! So now, I, Najwa Najhan, will try to finish my homeworks by my own effort *which will make me sitting at the Dewan Makan alone while prep*  especially on Addmaths, Maths, Physics aaaa you got my point aite? :D

*Unless if I'm berry lazy because Mr.M disease had been buried in my heart since I started high school. Thanks a lot! :(

Terribly homesick :(

One week has past here at SHAH. Shoot, baru satu minggu weh. And I'm waiting for June. Dear God, please get me outta here.

Nyways, this week, not so proudly to say that my school is the tuan rumah for the upcoming drama competition and hell no budak lower form dapat balik. SHIT! And wanna know something that burns my heart? Most of the lower form decided to STAY! Terbaik gila!

Okay, for the past few days, I've been calling my parents EVERY SINGLE DAY and they never fails me to cry whenever I listened to their voice. Terseksa :S  I miss you pa, I miss you ma. And I never get tired of saying that to you. And I'm kuching-sick. NENEKKKKK! Nak jumpa nenek!  :'(

Jojo? Macam taknak ganggu dia. Maybe he is busy with his stuff so like yeah. Belum tentu dia akan reply on the spot. A bit sad lah takdapat nak text dia but I have to understand both of our situation. But I miss him.

As a conclusion :

I MISS EVERYONE AND I CANT WAIT TO GET OUTTA HERE!

Jojo

There's something that I can't quite explain 
I'm so in love with you 
You'll never take that away 
And if I've said it a hundred times before 
Expect a thousand more 
You'll never take that away 

Well expect me to be 
Calling you to see 
If you're okay when I'm not around 
Asking if you love me? 
I love the way you make it sound 
Calling you to see 
Do I try too hard to make you smile? 
To make us smile 

I will keep calling you to see 
If you're sleeping, are you dreaming 
If you're dreaming, are you dreaming of me 
I can't believe you actually picked me 

I thought that the world had lost it's way 
(It's so hard sometimes) 
Then I fell in love with you 
(Then came you) 
(Then came you) 
And you took that away 
(It's not so difficult, 
The world is not so difficult) 
You take away the old

Show me the new 
And I feel like I can fly when I stand next to you 
So while I'm on this phone 
A hundred miles from home 
I'll take the words you gave and send them back to you 

I only want to see 
If you're okay when I'm not around 
Asking if you love me? 
I love the way you make it sound 
Calling you to see 
Do I try too hard to make you smile? 
To make us smile 

I will keep calling you to see 
If you're sleeping, are you dreaming 
If you're dreaming, are you dreaming of me 
I can't believe you actually picked me 

Well I will keep calling you to see 
If you're sleeping, are you dreaming 
If you're dreaming, are you dreaming of me 
I can't believe you actually picked me 

I will keep calling you to see 
If you're sleeping, are you dreaming 
If you're dreaming, are you dreaming of me 
I can't believe you actually picked me 

Kuching :')

These past few days, I was at Kuching. I couldnt describe how happy I was when I'm there. Definitely excited to meet my nenek and aunties. Cousins. Miera. And of course, my sayang :') Too bad, no pictures were taken. -_- Just realized that though. Too busy talking to each other. Takpe takpe.

Everyday spending time with him was a blast. Walaupun 4days je, but its worth it. Daripada tak jumpa langsung. But, it left me with a broken heart as I waved goodbye to him. Never in my whole life I feel down like this. I may be okay later, but it'll take me weeks. Or months. I may look okay outside, but you never know how I feel inside.

I miss you b :'( Next holidays will be mid-year and raya. Although you said you're coming here during mid-year hols but its still a long time to go. 2 months. I know you asked me to be relax, cool, chill. But I guess I couldnt control my feelings anymore. I'm sorry that I have to go to Pahang. I'm sorry that I couldnt text you the whole time. I'm really sorry.

I even hold my tears when my nenek kissed me! 

Gosh, soooo not ready to go back to SHAH. 

Kawan Barr

When I read my last post *I'm Coming Home* through my bb, its like I've insulted the school pretty bad. WEIRDLY, its kinda annoyed because it aint so bad actually. HAHA weirdo I know. Btw, every student there loves SHAH so much is because the friends they have since form 1. And I'm just a new girl who just need to find friends that they have.

Gladly to say that my friends ROCK! *Eceh eceh jangan kembang* Perangai lebih kurang je actually. Cuma dorg tak show sangat. Unlike me -____- Sakai forever, thankss. Btw, this last 2 weeks, they guided me, although most of the time I turned blur or senang kata, tak faham apa dorg cakap. Heh heh sorry guys.

Okay dengan tak berapa nak bangganya, I'd like to tell you things that I've joined there at SHAH.

Class : 4 Bakti

Club : Photography

Sports : Either Tennis or Squash -_-

Uniform : Scouts *oh damnit*

Extra Bahasa : Jepun *dipaksa oleh Mukhriz, yeah thanks a lot dude!*

Job : Officially teacher of Bahasa Sarawak to my friends. 

Wawasan Diri : Masih tetap dgn "Saya ingin menjadi orang kaya."

Oh and I learnt something from Japan class the other day.

"Okka noditchi ni kochitai. ARR <3"

I'm coming home

Setelah 2 minggu terseksa kat SHAH sana, haaa finally cuti jugak. GAH taknak balik sana balik! Seriously, muka dah hitam macam tambi -_- Milla macam mana eh kat Mukah sana? Rindu gilaaa.

Ni yg nak cerita ni. Sepanjang hidup 2 minggu kat sana, rasa macam nak lari sekolah je. Sumpah penat nak mamps. Takde rehat langsung. Masa rehat, I filled it with doing chores such as ironing my baju kurung or washing my clothes. Washing machine macam siiiiiii sebab ada je yg guna. Memang tak kasi chance langsung. Pergi prep plak kena pakai pump shoes or apaapa je asalkan bukan slipper. WTH? Duduk kat Dewan Makan je pun. TAKTAHAN.

Oh lagi satu, gladly to annouce that I have friends. But apa dorang cakap SUMPAH TAK FAHAM! Otak pending kejap, then baru faham. Sumpah tak rock. Then baru 2 minggu kat sana dah ada drama. Terbaik lah weh. Haaa stress. Cuti seminggu sumpah tak cukup. Homeworks memang takboleh lagi banyak.

The best is, Najwa start rapat for almost semua perempuan aras Hamdan. Apa itu Hamdan? Hamdan tuuu, nama rumah sukan. Warna hijau. Memang takboleh lari from rumah hijau lah Najwa ni. And I got award terbaik punyaa. "Penyental Baju Terbaik". Sengal betul. HAHA

But, WHATEVER lah. Cuti ni enjoy mati matian. Ada aku kisah? NAK BALIK KUCHING. Jumpa ninek, kak baby and jojo<3 *Excited nak mati* Okay adios!

Unexpected

Hello, hello. I dont know how to describe my feelings now. I'm angry, I'm sad, I'm happy, I'm confused. Ugh. Last night, I got a shocking news till today I still cant believe that it happened. My dad, gave me this :

At first of course I was thrilled and excited and happy because finally I've been accepted by the government. I screamed like hell and smiled widely like I have not smile for centuries. But then, something popped out in my mind. What about my friends? My cousins? Jojo? Milla, Ikhda & Fiqri? Kak Baby? God, I'll miss them terribly. And again, I'm not the type that studies 24/7. I enjoy, have fun, spend time with families and friends A LOT. Idk whether I can survive there. To fit in. I dont do timetable. And I might be homesick. Hmm, idk what to do now :(

-10 more days

Sivik ;D

Soalan yg dikemukakan oleh cikgu Sivik saya.

Wawasan diri anda?

: Saya ingin menjadi orang kaya.

Perkara yg harus anda lakukan untuk mencapainya?

: Sentiasa bersedia untuk menghadapi dugaan, belajar bersungguh-sungguh serta berdoa kepada Tuhan untk keberkatan.

Ikrar janji anda untuk mencapai wawasan itu?

: Maka saya, rakyat Malaysia, berikrar, akan sanggup menghadapi apa apa dugaan dan cabaran yang bakal saya tempuhi di masa hadapan tanpa mengenal erti putus asa dan penat lelah.

Jika gagal, apakah yg patut anda lakukan?

: Jika gagal, saya TIDAK akan berputus asa dan terus melakukannya sehingga berjaya.

Setelah berjaya, apakah yang patut anda lakukan? 

: Setelah berjaya, saya akan membuat majlis besar besaran tanda menghargai jasa ibu bapa dan semua rakan yg membantu serta membuka sebuah restoran dan meluaskannya sehingga ke luar negara. 

Keesokkan harinya :

Cikgu : Nama yg saya panggil, tahniah. Kamu adalah antara yg terbaik. Arief, Alif, Fatin, Vimal, blablabla.....
Me : Booooo damn it.

Azie : Relaxlah Najwa.
Cikgu : Najwa, Ikhda ......
Me : Yeeehaaa!
Fiqri : BOOOOOOOO.
Me : I just wanna be, I just wanna be successful. (Successful by Drake ft Trey Songz)